Saturday, April 16, 2011


I feel like I've definitely fallen off the wagon in the last month or so. There have been so many changes in my life and I'm starting to feel a little out of control. I got a new job, Jeff's looking for a new job, I chopped off my hair (yes, that's a big change!)... so it's just starting to be stressful.

I need to start taking care of myself and getting myself on the right track. With this new job comes a new daily routine, so I'm hoping that it will be something I enjoy and stuff like that.

I'm just a little sad lately. I need some more sunshine, some good workouts, and no junk food. I know all of that will make me feel a hundred times better.

Saturday, March 12, 2011


Kinda messed up... boozed it up tonight! But it was so good. So much fun. I needed some fun.

Wednesday, March 9, 2011


As to what I was talking about this morning... I just feel like I'm stuck inside myself. Does that make any sense? I have all this awesomeness inside me but my body just says, "Eh, I don't feel like doing that." I don't know if it's a lack of motivation or something else. It feels like I have an angel on one shoulder and a devil on the other... but not necessarily to that extreme, and not necessarily good and evil. It feels... confident and then uncertain, I think. Perhaps my self-esteem is getting to me. I'm also thinking it's this medication I'm taking for my skin. One of the warnings is that it messes with your mood, but I don't want to stop taking it because I need my skin to clear up. I'm 23 and my skin looks horrible! Ugh.

On the outside, I'm this happy, bubbly person who always has something to say and tries to look on the bright side of things, but on the inside I feel very conflicted. I know the way I'm feeling is ridiculous and unreasonable and that I have control over almost every aspect of my life, but I still feel so out of control and helpless. It's confusing!

I feel like I need a vacation from myself... a mental break.


Today is a new day. I need to start and really be serious about myself.

More to come a little later tonight.

Sunday, March 6, 2011

A quick note...

I went to the store today and they had pears! In the infinitely wise words of Charlie Sheen... Winning!

I'm back, I swear.

I've been failing at blogging! But I am back, hopefully to keep up now.

Tomorrow, I will start with the Supreme 90 Day workout and diet plan. It's basically a knock off of P90x, but I hear it's a little less intense. I'm looking forward to it. I think with that and my running, I'll be in tip-top shape for the 5k in May.

Speaking of... does anyone want to do the 5k in May with me? It's in Naperville, over at NVHS. I'm really looking forward to that, too.

I really wish it was pear season. I want a juicy pear.

Sunday, February 27, 2011

Well then.

It's been awhile since I've had much to say. Haven't really had a chance to exercise... been feeling rotten for about a week. Looks like I have a sinus infection... let me tell you, I feel awesome. I'm hoping that the antibiotics I was given today will help and I'll start to feel better soon.

In better news, Jeff and I went to Milwaukee this weekend. It was a lot of fun! We saw Cheap Trick, went to the casino, and did some touristy stuff. It was a bit of a bummer that I couldn't smell or taste anything but I had fun anyway. I love spending time with him. We ate a lot of bad food and drank quite a bit, so that was pretty bad on my part. I need to get back on track this week, at least with my food. I don't think I'll be working out until next week when I stop coughing.

Not much else to say for now.

Saturday, February 19, 2011

On second thought...

I'm thinking a half-marathon is a little excessive for a first race. There is a 5k that happens every year around the same time, so I think I'll do that instead. I'm doing pretty well with my exercising so far... I just need to make some more time for it. I did my hour on the elliptical on Tuesday, and I did a half-hour on the treadmill and a half-hour on the elliptical last night. I did a little over 4 miles total on each day.

I'm super proud of myself!

I think I'll try and head to the gym tomorrow morning so I can fit in a good workout before lunch. I'm supposed to heading to Chipotle... delicious. As long as I don't get sour cream, cheese, or guacamole, I should be legit. Yumyumyum.

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Half Marathon

I had decided last night that I would be going to the gym today. I made sure I had my bag packed so I could head over there after work. While I was at work today, one of the ladies in management mentioned that there would be a bank-wide half marathon in early May. I've been looking for some motivation to keep up with the treadmill and running outside once it gets nicer, and I think I found it. I love to run. I love the feeling I get after I run. I'm beyond excited for it, even though I've never done a race before.

I don't think I'll be able to run the whole thing, but it'll be nice to see what I can accomplish. When I got to gym tonight all of the treadmills were taken, so I hopped on an elliptical. Wow... I haven't used one of those in awhile. I forgot how easy they were on your joints. I went an hour and five minutes straight without stopping because I had no pain. I went 4.7 miles and burned 474 calories. I feel extremely accomplished. I know that elliptical machines sorta overestimate the amount of calories you burn, but still. It's nice to see that instead of 100 calories on the treadmill. But yeah... an hour straight and almost 5 miles... let's see how sore I am tomorrow!

Today was also Girl Scout cookie delivery day... so after my workout, I felt like I deserved to eat three Samoas. Don't hate! They were worth it!

Monday, February 14, 2011

Major Fail #2

We had a bake sale at work today to benefit our "Christmas in July" party that we're planning for ourselves. I had too much junk, and then had Jimmy Johns for dinner. My stomach is disliking me right now.

Major fail on my diet today. Then again, I can't really call it a diet. I'm going for a lifestyle change.  I'm strong. I can do this. I know I'm capable of good things and healthy habits.

I should get to the gym tomorrow.

Sunday, February 13, 2011

Date Night!

Had a lovely Valentine's Day date night with the love of my life! We went out for a nice dinner and then went for drinks. We always have a good time together. I didn't do too well with my choice of food or beverage, but it was a special occasion... ya know?

We went to Gordon Biersch, so you can't help but drink beer while you're there. I'm not used to drinking it but I had some anyway and it was delicious! When we went for drinks afterward, I decided to keep with the beer theme and had some hard cider. I'm not used to drinking so many carbs so I am still SO full.

Methinks I will have to get back on the wagon either tomorrow or Monday. I'm hoping that after another night of decent sleep and some more meds I'll feel well enough to get to the gym on Tuesday. I don't want to push myself so I'm just going to play it by ear. If I just have to walk on the treadmill, then I'll do it. We'll see!

Thursday, February 10, 2011


So what happens once I take some initiative and sign up at the gym? I get a cold. Let me tell you, I feel FABULOUS. I'm stuffed up and exhausted and just all around blah. I bought some DayQuil and chicken noodle soup tonight so hopefully those will make me feel better.

In better news... I did alright with my eating the last few days. I've been trying to count my WW points and trying to remember to write them down. My new favorite meal/snack is oatmeal. I found some sugar-free versions that aren't overly sweet and they're delicious, but I'm a little disappointed in the lack of variety. After reading quite a few of Chocolate-Covered Katie's posts, I decided to take matters into my own hands. My concoction isn't nearly as unprocessed and flavorful as her recipes are, but I figured it was a start! So here's my attempt at something delicious:

Banana Bread Oatmeal

1 packet of plain instant oatmeal
1 medium banana, diced
1 oz walnuts, chopped
1 packet Splenda

Prepare the instant oatmeal as directed on the package (or as you like it prepared... I always add a little more water than it asks for) and toss in the diced bananas as the oatmeal is absorbing the water. Once the water is mostly absorbed, toss in your diced walnuts. Ta-da! Just like banana bread. Since walnuts aren't naturally sweet like pecans (which I LOVE) I added a little Splenda for sweetness. That part is entirely optional.

So there you go... my foray into recipe making. I have some other delicious recipes, but none of which are healthyish. Perhaps I'll come up with some more.

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

It's a start.

I officially joined the gym at the rec center today. It's only for 3 months but I want to see if it's something I can keep up with before I commit to anything longer. I also tried to be good about my eating today. I did pretty well until I got home... I was bored and tired so I snacked. I didn't have anything super bad but still. I need to work on the self control and work on keeping myself busy.

I need a goal.

Tuesday, February 8, 2011


Today, we had a potluck at work. I ate SO. MUCH. FOOD. Ridiculous. We had this planned for awhile so I knew I would probably stuff myself, but that doesn't make me feel any better about feeling like a pig.

I think I'm going to get a 3 month trial membership to the gym near me. I have a treadmill at home, but its hard to get motivated when you work out in your basement. It might just be easier for me to go on my way home instead of getting home and then relaxing and making excuses. It will cost me, but I'm hoping it's worth it.

Monday, February 7, 2011


My main purpose for this blog is to keep myself accountable. Hopefully this will work.

I've really been trying to eat healthy foods and to be more active. I know I feel better when I stick with both of them but I have the worst self motivation. When I do stick to my healthy eating, I find that Weight Watchers really works... But like I said, sticking to it is my problem. I have a hard time saying no to my favorite foods.

I was able to be really good about it for a few months and I saw a huge difference in my body. At that point in my life, I had something big motivating me. I feel like I need something big to motivate me again, but I really don't know what to use.

Thoughts? Ideas?

Sunday, February 6, 2011

A New Beginning...

So this will be my attempt at a blog. It will basically be about what's going on in my life, because as the title states, I'm seriously just awesome. Who wouldn't want to read about me?

All kidding aside, I would like to share what's on my mind and what's going on with me. I think if I put things in writing where other people can see, it will keep me accountable for the things I say I will do. It would also be nice to get comments and opinions from people on the outside.

Who knows if this will be interesting or not... we will have to see.